abstract - 8/30/2003
flying isn’t the right word
fighting might be but in that slowed-down-not-moving sort of way
more like i respond a bit too slowly
I cant organize my thoughts in to an alpha attack pattern
I cant yell out "I did It!"
I got to look for it and even then I catch it
right in the grill.
burns me up like a blue flame of sporadic flatulence
quickly sputtering: spinning
I don't like it
I like being at easeI am going to try to see with my teeth guarded from now on.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
bounce - 10/13/2001
bounce out of me fly away from me runn!!
yeah that’s right this time you need a second n. trust me it helps I know what happens when you run.
trickle down me and enter my pores breath me. let my heat my life my spirit sync into you. don't slow down, I can take it. keep going!! no I dont need that part it is here for you always has been. fuck that I can handle solitude. who needs walls anyway?
bounce out of me fly away from me runn!!
yeah that’s right this time you need a second n. trust me it helps I know what happens when you run.
trickle down me and enter my pores breath me. let my heat my life my spirit sync into you. don't slow down, I can take it. keep going!! no I dont need that part it is here for you always has been. fuck that I can handle solitude. who needs walls anyway?
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pincers - 10/13/2001
grab at the fragments
go ahead
yeah that’s it a little to the left
damn you missed it
ok, ok don't fuck it up.
alright good job!!
was it worth it? huh?!
what do you mean it has scratches?
it was clean cut a second ago,
what happened to you hands?
"spot"? what spot?
grab at the fragments
go ahead
yeah that’s it a little to the left
damn you missed it
ok, ok don't fuck it up.
alright good job!!
was it worth it? huh?!
what do you mean it has scratches?
it was clean cut a second ago,
what happened to you hands?
"spot"? what spot?
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cherry - 10/13/2001
let the sparks splash down on your face
let the fear encroach the heat
let my flame burn you
you feel that? The latin spice?
that irish twist the way I fumble through the lines?
you feel this.
spike the tea and drink the life of that which pulses through every waking mind.
walk these streets in vain.
walk these roads in comfusion.
write these words out of desperation
to learn what is there
to find out what you have been hiding
to find the pilot light.
let the sparks splash down on your face
let the fear encroach the heat
let my flame burn you
you feel that? The latin spice?
that irish twist the way I fumble through the lines?
you feel this.
spike the tea and drink the life of that which pulses through every waking mind.
walk these streets in vain.
walk these roads in comfusion.
write these words out of desperation
to learn what is there
to find out what you have been hiding
to find the pilot light.
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speaking of burn.... - 9/25/2001
original writing of this poem was 8-16-01:
you know what i am ready for this. I am proud of the fact that I am not at the end of this tunnel.
transcend your self
out GROW YOUR self
learn something new...
break your own heart...
BURN your own soul
FORTIFY YOUR BEING
ensure your seeing...
follow your heart and wholeness into the darkness, loose the world, be your own rock. Find your God. find your own flock. But come back to reality a new man, trust what you have learned. Use it and always accrue it!
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original writing of this poem was 8-16-01:
you know what i am ready for this. I am proud of the fact that I am not at the end of this tunnel.
transcend your self
out GROW YOUR self
learn something new...
break your own heart...
BURN your own soul
FORTIFY YOUR BEING
ensure your seeing...
follow your heart and wholeness into the darkness, loose the world, be your own rock. Find your God. find your own flock. But come back to reality a new man, trust what you have learned. Use it and always accrue it!
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sound - 9/24/2001
It's been pretty fuckin' loud here recently. There are so many boddies in orbit and so many stars falling. I have to run for cover, but there is no where left to hide and I left my hard hat in another life. I am learning group disconnection. It's kool though I think I can handle it. I am being baked like potery of souls, and formed like moral paper mache. yeah I can handle it like a jar with no friction and too much inertia. I fight a good battle this depresion is regressing and I have stopped presing the fact that I am affected.
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It's been pretty fuckin' loud here recently. There are so many boddies in orbit and so many stars falling. I have to run for cover, but there is no where left to hide and I left my hard hat in another life. I am learning group disconnection. It's kool though I think I can handle it. I am being baked like potery of souls, and formed like moral paper mache. yeah I can handle it like a jar with no friction and too much inertia. I fight a good battle this depresion is regressing and I have stopped presing the fact that I am affected.
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Magic - 8/10/2001
magic desends upon this group, it touches and manipulates the templates of our actions. etherial quake ours souls shake and rip from the convetional constrictions. There is so much happiness here. it was dormant for years and I am here to collect damnit. I don't think there is too much to discourage me. you can't convince me your telling the truth. Details speak to me in volumes of greatness and classics. the light instructs me the eye reflections push and pulle me teeth and mouth ignite me and you are exposed and hiding from my gaze. but you don't want to you feel the magic too. and yeah I think this time around it was meant for you. so let it be.
magic desends upon this group, it touches and manipulates the templates of our actions. etherial quake ours souls shake and rip from the convetional constrictions. There is so much happiness here. it was dormant for years and I am here to collect damnit. I don't think there is too much to discourage me. you can't convince me your telling the truth. Details speak to me in volumes of greatness and classics. the light instructs me the eye reflections push and pulle me teeth and mouth ignite me and you are exposed and hiding from my gaze. but you don't want to you feel the magic too. and yeah I think this time around it was meant for you. so let it be.
Inspiration - 7/31/2001
inspiration, that easily elusive cognitive booster that enflames the sences and sends so many messages like a blitzkrieg of so much intrigue, a flash in the pan for the most part. It is that one connection of the human heart to those things other.
Other peices of:
nature,
History,
Glory,
Poeple,
Knowledge,
Destruction,
Creation,
Liberty,
...........Takes wings from the inside, the span of which guides the hand and the pen. This little light of mind feeling that intrigues and then speeds the wordly interpretations into that frenzy of confusion compounded by persecution, that nice little "huh?" that stare from the crowd; and then the smile inside the shell(:
inspiration, that easily elusive cognitive booster that enflames the sences and sends so many messages like a blitzkrieg of so much intrigue, a flash in the pan for the most part. It is that one connection of the human heart to those things other.
Other peices of:
nature,
History,
Glory,
Poeple,
Knowledge,
Destruction,
Creation,
Liberty,
...........Takes wings from the inside, the span of which guides the hand and the pen. This little light of mind feeling that intrigues and then speeds the wordly interpretations into that frenzy of confusion compounded by persecution, that nice little "huh?" that stare from the crowd; and then the smile inside the shell(:
I miss you - 7/31/2001
I missed you again last night I had a dream that everything was alrigt. We were riding along from coast to coast, We had every one we knew, only the closest folks. We stopped somewhere we were buying Gas and as we kept walking I was watching your ass. When you figured it out you weren't really mad at me, you just turn aroud and called me silly. Then it was my turn to smile and it was your lips that I found, and we started wishin' there was no one around. So we walked into the store and we bought somew gum, Yeah this road trip as going to be lots of fun. I remember askin what you were thinkin you said "Nothin' I love you" and thats when I realized I was dreamin.....
I missed you again last night I had a dream that everything was alrigt. We were riding along from coast to coast, We had every one we knew, only the closest folks. We stopped somewhere we were buying Gas and as we kept walking I was watching your ass. When you figured it out you weren't really mad at me, you just turn aroud and called me silly. Then it was my turn to smile and it was your lips that I found, and we started wishin' there was no one around. So we walked into the store and we bought somew gum, Yeah this road trip as going to be lots of fun. I remember askin what you were thinkin you said "Nothin' I love you" and thats when I realized I was dreamin.....
here it goes - 7/14/2001
ambiguity androgeny confusion happiness increased loliness awesome goodness curious reasons more confusion... inflated ego comfort impending doom betrayal enigmatic expressions and evolved positions ramblings sexy thoughts of escape and closure not realated to the things I know... open the drain.
ambiguity androgeny confusion happiness increased loliness awesome goodness curious reasons more confusion... inflated ego comfort impending doom betrayal enigmatic expressions and evolved positions ramblings sexy thoughts of escape and closure not realated to the things I know... open the drain.
Newness
newness - 6/27/2001
come to me as I breathe and blink into the light of this my new freedom, It must be the freedom that steers me and stirs me, there are so many things in play and others deathly serious, with aspects of unknown limits that bind and confine the thoughts into that one place where you cannot be defeated and it doesnt make much since but it's just the way it is.
I need to guard this protect this love this and let it lead me I need to be what I know I can be and let all else fall into place. so much depends on the rain and myself....
come to me as I breathe and blink into the light of this my new freedom, It must be the freedom that steers me and stirs me, there are so many things in play and others deathly serious, with aspects of unknown limits that bind and confine the thoughts into that one place where you cannot be defeated and it doesnt make much since but it's just the way it is.
I need to guard this protect this love this and let it lead me I need to be what I know I can be and let all else fall into place. so much depends on the rain and myself....
Shank you verry much
Shanked - 2/9/2001
There used to be a time when i didn't think.
About
Who I was or where I am or what isn't
here
have a nice trip I say to myself as I reach further into my nostalgia. Thats the beauty of other languages, they generaly don't beat around the bush. Words that fit well like nostalgia are the venacular.
It would seem the popular vocabularies of men do not hold water in the worlds langauge.
I wait for school the cerebral expasnion of ones life is important.
It creates a synergy with ones soul to allow him to reach his highest level of functionality and then to asend one higher.
Learning
Like the kind that we should all have for each other a heal the world type of thing.
Fu** the world.
Thats all I hear... I never believed the shit about truly evil people. and now i don't believe the shit about the truly good ones.
of course that's probably for the best: I don't intend to get shanked, not in hear; not out there.
There used to be a time when i didn't think.
About
Who I was or where I am or what isn't
here
have a nice trip I say to myself as I reach further into my nostalgia. Thats the beauty of other languages, they generaly don't beat around the bush. Words that fit well like nostalgia are the venacular.
It would seem the popular vocabularies of men do not hold water in the worlds langauge.
I wait for school the cerebral expasnion of ones life is important.
It creates a synergy with ones soul to allow him to reach his highest level of functionality and then to asend one higher.
Learning
Like the kind that we should all have for each other a heal the world type of thing.
Fu** the world.
Thats all I hear... I never believed the shit about truly evil people. and now i don't believe the shit about the truly good ones.
of course that's probably for the best: I don't intend to get shanked, not in hear; not out there.
The first
Hope here is freedom. Freedom from certain recognition. Nod of the head to Jeff. I thibnk this might work out. I hope to be able to post in torrent soon.
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